Filled with love and yet filled with anger...

Yup so I've been writing songs recently. It's been meaningful to me to do that. Wrote two songs on Saturday, and I want to write another after reading some portions from scripture about Moses.

I guess I need to "go away" for a while. It's interesting the things in my heart and my emotions. Part of me loves her so deeply, but a part of me, is angry and bitter towards her. A part of me wants to be with her, and a part of me doesn't.

A part of me doesn't care about her, a part of me doesn't even want her in my life, or even want her around...yet a part of me wants to always be with her.

hmmm....Joshua, you're so strange...need help!! hahaha!..

Well, that's why I need to "go away". Trying my best to sort out my feelings and emotions. But there is a need to go on "retreats", so that I can get these feelings sorted out. Anyway...