What do I do now?

I'm quite depressed now, and feeling very low. Well it's because of a girl I love so dearly. I'm depressed because I love her so much!, so much that it's indescribable to tell. I'm hurt because I can't be with her, I know that we can make it work! But....
Love cannot be forced, I cannot force her to be with me can I? Oh I would do anything to have her in my arms again.

I don't know what to do anymore. My heart is completely broken. I never thought that this would happen. It was a hard day at work, hard to focus, hard to eat. Praying so much for strength, guidance and grace. I got home today from work, and just layed on the floor listening to Hillsong United, and just holding on to Him, and his words through song. It felt better.

I'm trying to deal with depression right now, I've found a few words from a trusted pastor.

1. Let God confront you! - Just like Elijah was confronted by God when he was depressed, God approached him with grace, and ministered to him.

2. Let God reveal Himself to you - God revealed himself to Elijah

3. Let God provide for you - God ministered to Elijah by providing for him with healing and rest. I will receive his provision from His word, or from a friend, a piece of wisdom that He brings to mind, a new direction, a loving embrace.

4. Immediately do what God says : Specific instructions were given to Elijah to do.

5. Get involved with people again.


It's hard. I'm seeking God right now, with all of my heart, looking to Him for grace, direction, healing, wisdom, and a loving embrace. Help me God! My prayer is : God lead me, God help me, God guide, strengthen , and grant me wisdom. God heal and deliver me.

-My love for you runs sooo deep, and soo wide. You ask me to move on, how could I when I love you so dearly. You ask me why I love you? I would tell you because I adore you. I love you so much. I wish you really knew how much. -