So..what's next??

So what is next God? I am not her ideal. She said, "You don't even know me" or "I am more than you think I am", well I get the impression, she doesn't think that I'll accept it. So we're different...but I would support her in whatever ventures she would want to..of course I want to go on adventures, I told her this. So what now God?...I guess nothing. So she asks me why do you want this so bad? I told her the truth....not good enough? I'm not good enough. Okay, I get the message. Loud and clear..Josh get it into your head!!!! Get it into your heart!! WAke up Josh!